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| moving on.... |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|08:57 am] |
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i'm leaving this blog...
i'll be starting a new one or rather, i'll continue my blog on a new site!
yay!
yay!
my new blog is
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http://kemikulz.blogspot.com
see yah when ya get there! |
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| caught up |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|12:16 am] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | crazy in love by beyonce | ] |
its a little past midnight and i'm still here.
the circuit alumni homecoming/year-end party has just finished and it was great! although i didn't really dig my own-choice-stir fry, i enjoyed the disco part a lot. it's been quite awhile since i last dance, disco that is. although only few grooved into the dance floor it was okay. and although some of the songs were not that great (or danceable..as in super disco dance) some songs that i really like were played like Crazy in Love (my favoritest[don't bug me about my grammar i just like the term k?] dance song}, Buttercup and others. it was also great that i've met some of the circuit alumni and bonded with the other members. although some issues came up, it was good that it was cleared(maybe) and resolved(i think so) really quick. i also had the chance to eat vanilla ice cream which i haven't done for quite a while now, it was good..like i'm a kid who is so excited to eat an ice cream.,.or maybe not. hehe. of course there were picture taking sessions, but i only got through a couple or so.. but at least i was there in some pictures.
after the party, we escorted one of our orgmate to her house. although it was super far...well, maybe just far, it was alright and when we were going back out of the subdivision, it was just like a breeze and now here i am, again in fron of my pc, hanging out at the circuitboards and writing in my journal.
although i know myself that i haven't been productive this day, as always, laziness and pc addiction took over, i know that tomorrow is another day and i must do what i must do. it is exam week again next week and i got to be serious this time, failing more than one subject is what i don't want to do. i need to step up and do my duty. i need to study. one fail is enough, i can't take any more failing grade. i need to control myself and be a good student, after all that is why i'm here... to study and graduate...on time if possible. |
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| such a loser |
[Mar. 12th, 2005|06:01 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | just lose it by eminem | ] |
i pity people who are such sore losers...
i pity people who can't shut their freakin' mouth...
i pity people who can't do anything but bitch about someone...
i pity people who are "kulang sa pansin"...
i pity people who would do anything just to start a fight...
i pity people who can't accept that the one that they are fighting with just don't give a damn...
pity...pity...pity
some people would do anything just to piss of one person, but what happens is that,what they do backfires, on the other person's perspective, that is. they end up such whiny losers that are too childish who acts as if they don't have anything to do but to bitch and whine.
in my case, i just laugh at those kind of people. it's like they are so desperate to get attention even if the other party ignores them. in my opinion, it looks lyk they are soooo trying hard to piss me but it doesn't work.
snide remarks won't hurt me, if you have something to say, say it straight to my face and don't tell it to other people...bitch. don't use writing medium to insult me, say it to my face...i'll just laugh at you. you are such a loser. you don't have guts. you are one fucked up person. mind your own business will you? and also...you stink! if you don't know that by now...haha.
insecure loser... get a life. don't pester me cause i ain't let you ruin my life. besides, you are nothing.
i pity you. |
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| am i a survivor addict? |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|11:41 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | ancient voices by russ landau | ] |
haha... found this in a blog and i don't know if this applies to me. i think not, i'm a big survivor fanatic but i think this is over the top..hehe
SuRvIvOr RoX!
| You Know You're Addicted to Survivor When... |
When you lose a game of pick-up basketball, you turn to your teamates and dejectedly say "Well, I guess we're gonna have to hike up to Tribal Council tonight."
Your friends begin to wonder why you always say "I like you guys...but not in a homosexual way."
When your math teacher threatens to kick you out of class for talking to much, you proudly shoot back "You can't. I have immunity."
You buy a Canadian Alliance membership since "the only people who ever win are those in an alliance."
When giving out your phone number, you give people your cell number, pager number, and coconut phone number.
When someone tells you you're going on a picnic, you immediately assume that all you'll be eating are Doritos and Mountain Dew.
You scour the local health food store for chicken feed.
You deliberately cook all your rice mushy because you know it will "piss Jerri off".
Whenever your girlfriend so much as mentions chocolate, you stand up and shout "The Colbster (or Danster, or Jamester or whatever your name is) is not a Hershey Bar!!!"
You throw buckets on water on people you don't like.
You justify all your actions by saying: "It's what Mike would have wanted us to do."
You think the Gore-Bush deadlock should have been decided on "previous votes."
At 12:50 every day, you announce: "The tribe has spoken. It's time to go...to Biology."
You plant beef jerkey in your friends backpack and when he leaves you tell people that you think he's been smuggling jerkey "behind our backs."
You find the mere mention of beef jerkey funny.
When voting in the provincial election voting booth, you neatly print "RALPH" on your ballot, then hold it up and say: "Ralph, if you were dying of thirst in the..."
You force yourself to watch VH1 Rock 'N Roll jeopardy just to see more of Jeff Probst.
Whenever you use a candle snuffer, you insist on saying: "The tribe has spoken."
You get the innexplicable urge to wave your finger in the face of any vegetarians you know.
You no longer talk to anyone you know named Jerri.
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Survivor.
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| living in the past |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|11:32 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | paraiso by smokey mountain | ] |
( Read more... )
this is an excerpt from one of my many written weirdness, i know that it is corny or something, but hey...i can't help it, this is me.
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Paraiso
Return to a land called Paraiso,
a place where a dying river ends.
No birds there fly over Paraiso,
no space allows them to endure.
The smoke that screens the air,
the grass that's never there.
****I want to go back to the past….
And if I could see a single bird, what a joy.
I try to write some words and create
a simple song to be heard
by the rest of the world.
***I want to go back to the days when I am carefree, I’ve had my friends. The time when I study because it’s fun...not because I have to. And this is my only way to go back there… to write and reminisce…
I live in this land called Paraiso,
in a house made of cardboard floors and walls.
I learned to be free in Paraiso,
free to claim anything I see.
Matching rags for my clothes,
plastic bags for the cold.
***I live in the past. Although physically I’m in the present, my heart is in the past, trapped and never wanting to move on. I’m happy there. I’m happy when all the people I know knows me, all of them I can trust…All of them I can rely on. I’m happy even though I know its hard, just because I am where I am…
And if empty cans were all I have, what a joy.
I never fight to take someone
else's coins and live with fear
like the rest of the boys.
***But now, I must be contented in what I have, memories of the past. I should not be so connected with the past and think of it every single time… I have to move on…
Paraiso, help me make a stand.
Paraiso, take me by the hand
Paraiso, make the world understand
***I want to understand that the past is just the stepping stone. That the present is what is important and that the future is what I must look forward to. Not trapped in a place where all are just made up…all are just in my head…
that if I could see a single bird, what a joy.
This tired and hungry land could expect
some truth and hope and respect
from the rest of the world.
***I need to live with the present. I , myself, needs me. I must face the truth. That I can never go back. That I can never repeat what happened before. Time is slipping by so fast, I need to catch up. Although I don’t want to, I must. This is the rule of life, this is the game I’m into. I must play or nothing will happen, nothing will be right. Not just for me, but for the people around me.
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| secrets of life |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|11:36 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | i believe by blessed union of souls | ] |
i just want to share this...
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THE TOP 11 SECRETS OF LIFE
1. IT HURTS TO LOVE SOMEONE AND NOT BE LOVED IN RETURN, BUT WHAT IS MORE PAINFUL IS TO LOVE SOMEONE AND NEVER FIND THE COURAGE TO LET THAT PERSON KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.
2. A SAD THING IN LIFE IS WHEN YOU MEET SOMEONE WHO MEANS A LOT TO YOU,
ONLY TO FIND OUT IN THE END THAT IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO LET GO.
3. THE BEST KIND OF FRIEND IS THE KIND YOU CAN SIT ON A PORCH, SWING WITH, NEVER SAY A WORD, AND THEN WALK AWAY FEELING LIKE IT WAS THE BEST CONVERSATION YOU'VE EVER HAD.
4. IT'S TRUE THAT WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'VE GOT UNTIL WE LOSE IT, BUT IT'S
ALSO TRUE THAT WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'VE BEEN MISSING UNTIL IT ARRIVES.
5.IT TAKES ONLY A MINUTE TO GET A CRUSH ON SOMEONE, AN HOUR TO LIKE SOMEONE, AND A DAY TO LOVE SOMEONE, BUT IT TAKES A LIFETIME TO FORGET SOMEONE.
6. DON'T GO FOR LOOKS; THEY CAN DECEIVE. DON'T GO FOR WEALTH; EVEN THAT FADES AWAY. gO FOR SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU SMILE BECAUSE IT TAKES ONLY A SMILE TO MAKE A DARK DAY SEEM BRIGHT.
7. DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM; GO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO; BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE, BECAUSE YOU HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE AND ONE CHANCE TO DO ALL THE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO.
8. ALWAYS PUT YOURSELF IN THE OTHER SHOES. IF YOU FEEL THAT IT HURTS YOU, IT PROBABLY HUTS THE PERSON TOO.
9. A CARELESS WORD MAY KINDLE STRIFE; A CRUEL WORD MAY WRECK A LIFE; A
TIMELY WORD MAY LEVEL STRESS; A LOVING WORD MAY HEAL AND BLESS.
10. THE HAPPIEST OF PEOPLE DON'T NECESSARILY HAVE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING THEY JUST MAKE THE MOST OF EVERYTHING THAT COMES ALONG THEIR WAY.
11. LOVE BEGINS WITH A SMILE, GROWS WITH A KISS, ENDS WITH A TEAR. WHEN YOU WE'RE BORN, YOU WERE CRYING AND EVERYONE AROUND YOU WAS SMILING. LIVE YOUR LIFE SO THAT WHEN YOU DIE, YOU'RE THE ONE SMILING AND EVERYONE AROUND YOU IS CRYING.
ALWAYS REMEBER-LIFE IS PRECIOUS, DON'T LET IT SLIP BY!!!!! |
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| finally! |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|10:04 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | 90's songs | ] |
ok, this might be a day late, but hey! what the heck..i still want to post it!
i finally got 100 posts in a day in the circuitboards! hooray for me!
hehehe
and i got a screen cap to remember it!
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| STAR |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|11:10 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | star by bryan adams | ] |
this is one of my favorite songs...
i first heard this in the movie Jack which starred Robin Williams
i really like the lyrics and the message of the song
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What cha wanna be - when you grow up
What cha gonna do - when your time is up
What cha gonna say - when things go wrong
What cha wanna do - when you're on your own
There's a road - long and winding
The lights are blindin' - but it gets there
Don't give up - don't look back
There's a silver linin' - it's out there somewhere
Everybody wants an answer - everybody needs a friend
We all need a shinin' star on which we can depend
N' so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (to find what you're
looking for)
There'll be times - in your life
Ya when you' be dancin' n' shit - but you ain't gettin it
But don't get disillusioned - no, don't expect too much
Cuz if what you have is all you can get - just keep on
tryin' - it just ain't happened yet
Everybody wants ta be winner - everybody has a dream
We all need a shinin' star when things ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (gotta get where you're
headed for)
Everybody wants some kindness - everybody needs a break
We all need a shinin' star when things get hard to take
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before
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i posted it here beacuse it's the first time that i found the lyrics in the internet, i was searching for it a long time ago but i can't find it, and now i have!
i really love the song, it's one of those songs that really have a place in my heart ^_^ |
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| the week that was |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|08:33 pm] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | beautiful day by u2 | ] |
i'm happy because...
-tapos na ang squeeeze
-ang haba ng tulog dis day
-nakakalog-in na ulit ako sa circuit boards
-nanalo ako sa raffle
-nakahanap na ako ng mapapagdownloadan ng survivor episodes
-marami pa!
dis past week started out so bad, pero naging okay naman at the latter part, recap on what happened this week, February 28- March 6 2005
Monday, February 28
I came back to diliman after 1 and a half day of stay in olongapo, pagdating ko dito, sumama pakiramdam ko, i felt lazy and my head hurts...so hindi ako nakapsok sa dalawang class ko... darn... i posted here what i felt that day...
Tuesday, March 1
Start of MArch. Tinatamad pa rin ako... pero pumasok ako sa mga subjects ko.. except ES 21, tumambay lang ako sa tambayan, binigay yung exam sa CS32, ma=taas ako! ok na yun, and nagpraktis kami ng indacktors para sa squeeze...
bad start buth happy ending
Wednesday, MArch 2
Nothing special, nakimeet lang ako sa provincial org, issues came up,
i'm not so happy, i researched for our project in EEE 34 luckily i found some good stuff, nga pala bday to ni ric pero di siya nagreply sa text ko, Amazing race premier din pero i failed to catch it
THursday MArch 3
Happy day! i finally found a torrent site na may survivor episodes! astig, nakapasok ako sa lahat ng class ko and syempre preaktis ng indactors...yun lang hehe
Friday, MArch 4
Ganda ng simula ng day, nagbigay ng chocolate si Mam Gev sa class hehe, at syempre the day before the squeeeze to kaya todo prepare ang circuit, mejo nakatulong din ako, at nagpraktis kami ng mga indacktors,
at syempre this is a SURVIVOR DAY! jeff was voted off, i really lyk the koror tribe,.,,hehe
Saturday, March 5
SQUEEEZE day! need i say more? free lunch, nakakuha ako ng poring doll pero binigay ko na lang sa katabi ko kc nakakahiya naman eh hehhe, birthday ni lea! nanlibre siya ng cielos donuts hehe, masarap yung donut! nakakuha ako ng souvenirs at nakabond ako samga Apps ng circuit, i'm so glad na nagawa ko rin yung part ko as member ng memcom hehe
at syempre after squeeeze, nagkaraffle at nanalo ako ng red wine yehey! at kumain kami nina olibver,sarah,risha,pauee,jr,cesar,rayne,lea and randy sa pizza hut, dumating din yung ibang mga 02 namely mark,bananie, rr and wilson, la lanbg... hehe kahit na tiring yung day it was so fun! akala ko masyadong hectic ng squeeze day pero ok lang pala! this day rocks!
Sunday, March 6
Ngayon to, wala akong ginawa kung hindi kumain, matulog at mag internet...rest day ba... bukas... may pasok pa naman and for some weird reason,=... i'm looking forward to it... hehehe
ASTIG! sana masaya rin dis coming week, and after dat, exam week na naman hahahaha
circuit rockz! |
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[Feb. 28th, 2005|10:21 am] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | masaya by bamboo | ] |
"ako'y malungkot na naman..."
naramdaman mo na ba yung feeling na bigla ka na lang madedepress?
yun bang wala lang.... ok naman yung araw mo tapos bigla ka lang madedepress?
ewan ko ba pero ganun yung nararamdaman ko ngayon..
di naman sa masaya talaga yung araw ko pero para sa akin DAPAT masaya ako.
bakit?
eh kasi after two months nakauwi din ako ng olongapo , so dapat pagbalik ko dito sa diliman masaya na ako, pero hindi ganun eh...
masama lang siguro pakiramdam ko.... o katamaran lang?
di ako makapgfocus....nde ko alam kung bakit...
gusto kong mag-aral para sa eee35 at 23 pero parang walang pumapasok sa isip ko... bakit kaya?
nde pa ako nakapasok sa mga klase ko.... dalawa na lang nga....
masakit kasi ulo ko...
natatakot tuloy ako baka wala na naman akong maintindihan.
buong araw lang tuloy akong nakatunganga dito sa kwarto ko sa dorm
alas siyete
bumaba ako sa lobby para magrelax, pero wala rin, parang may mali sa araw ko..
ewan ba kung bakit...
parng nadepress lang ako bigla...
nakakatamad...
parang ayaw ko pa kasing bumalik dito sa up... ang hirap kasi eh
pero kailangan eh, malapit na naman akong mag-exam sa halos lahat ng subject ko...
akala ko magiging ok na kapag nakapag-internet ako, hindi rin pala...
lalo lang akong parang nalungkot...
di ko talaga alam kung bakit eh, nakkagulo.
bukas, puno na naman ang sked ko sa klase, election pa ng usc at esc, dagdag na naman ng gagawin...
oo nga pala praktis pa bukas ng indacktors para sa squeeeze.. at least may outlet na ako ng depression ko at mejo sasaya na nman ako...
ayaw ko sanang simulan yung linggo ko ng ganito pero wala akong magawa...
sana bukas masaya na ulit ako...
oo nga pala february 28 ngayon... tapos na naman ang isang buwan..
ang bilis, march 1 na mamaya...less than two hours na lang,
sana hindi na ako ganito buks...
sa ngayon...
matutulog na lang muna ako... |
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| open up |
[Feb. 22nd, 2005|11:08 am] |
| [ | i'm feeling... |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | sOuNdTriP |
| | behind these hazel eyes - kelly clarkson | ] |
---cause i cant breathe
---and i can't sleep
---i'm barely hanging on
i don't know why but these words are looping in my head...
it's a part of the song behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson...
it's not that i can relate what i feel right now from the song's message
i just can't forget these part
is it because i'm worried?
maybe
uncomfortable?
maybe
anxious?
maybe
i don't know
i think when people read this the initial reaction will be
"oh my god! does he want to ...."
of course not! i'm just tired and confused and worried...
i want to sleep... |
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